I am working on my RTS application today. One of the essay questions is "Why do you wish to pursue a course in theological study." This question was difficult for me because I have no direct answer. For me going to seminary is not like going to undergrad. I am not going to receive a degree that will help my career or take me to the next level. I want to go to seminary because I want to learn about God. I want to learn about his Word. Sometimes I feel uncomfortable saying that is the only reason, because there doesn't seem to be a direct end. People often ask me what I'm going to do with my degree. Well, I'm going to serve God. No, I don't need a degree for that. I just want to be fully equipped for whatever God has planned for my life.
Why do you want to pursue fill-in-the-blank? We are all pursuing something. And I think that this question, may be more difficult to answer then we think. It requires us to examine our hearts. To push away the superficial answers we give other people so we sound like we have a plan. I admit it! I don't have a plan. I have no idea where God is going to have me next year, forget about my ten year plan. My prayer is that I glorify God throughout the journey, that I rely on his strength, not my own. Pursue the Lord.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Saturday, October 3, 2009
"Our Heavenly Father: Let us see Thy glory, if it must be from the shelter of the cleft rock and from beneath the protection of Thy covering hand. Whatever the cost to us in loss of friends or goods or length of days let us know Thee as Thou art, that we may adore Thee as we should. Through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen." -A.W. Tozer
I am reading "The Knowledge of the Holy" by A.W. Tozer (a must read!) with my small group. Tozer opened his chapter on God's Infinitude with that prayer. I was so struck by the desire to truly know God and see his glory. To truly know God is to count everything loss compared to knowing him (Phil 3:8). However, so often I create my own god through my limiting opinions and ideas. Tozer says, "This God we have made and because we have made him we can understand him; because we have created him he can never surprise us, never overwhelm us, nor astonish us, nor transcend us."
My prayer is that I would have a big view of God. That I would think rightly about God. He is Holy. He is awesome. He is all-powerful. He is all-knowing. He is self-sufficient. He is infinite. He appears at the beginning and end simultaneously. He is the creator; I am the created. As Psalm 139:6 says, " Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it." How can I begin to fathom God? Do I dare put God in a box?